Murph, Self Sabotage and Poor Performance

SELF SABOTAGE

Oh man, I done did it. And it showed. I guess I’m just a glutton for punishment. Like any junkie I fell to the dark side! I was doing so good and was feeling so awesome. But then I indulged. My brain told me it would be fine and my brain lied to me. So I ate a few cookies, had some nasty ass tacos from Taco Bell, inhaled some ice cream, Chic-fil-a and pizza. Now this wasn’t all in one sitting but ya, I had all of this food over the Memorial Day Weekend. I’m surprised I didn’t puke my guts out. Even though I ate it all, I didn’t ENJOY it like I thought I would and it even feels like I was just eating more to see if it would be enjoyable. Not once did any of it really make my day. So yes a bunch of gluttony and no reward for it. NO happy dance. NO guilty pleasure. JUST a bunch of telling myself I SUCK and why did I do it 😦

MURPH
Besides what seems like a lot of baseball we pretty much lounged around all weekend and pigged out on food. UGH! But when Monday rolled around we headed to the BOOM BOX for a Community WOD. Since it was a holiday there was only one WOD going down and I should have figured it out what was in store but I didn’t. We show up to the joy of MURPH!

“Murph”
For time:
1 mile Run
100 Pull-ups
200 Push-ups
300 Squats
1 mile Run

In memory of Navy Lieutenant Michael Murphy, 29, of Patchogue, N.Y., who was killed in Afghanistan June 28th, 2005.

This workout was one of Mike’s favorites and he’d named it “Body Armor”. From here on it will be referred to as “Murph” in honor of the focused warrior and great American who wanted nothing more in life than to serve this great country and the beautiful people who make it what it is.

Partition the pull-ups, push-ups, and squats as needed. Start and finish with a mile run. If you’ve got a twenty pound vest or body armor, wear it.

Now we did this as a team so it wasn’t as brutal as doing it on your own but it was still pretty harsh. And this all went down at 9am. It’s considerably warmer at 9 than at 5am. I was not prepared to melt during the runs. The runs which sucked! As a team we broke up the movements. Not too bad but for the pullups, band assistance was not allowed! Say WHAT?!?!? We had to have our team members give us a boost to the bar. They had to be our BOX for jumping pullups or actually hold our feet and help push us up so that we could do a PULL UP! Our time is unofficial but we finished around the 45 minute mark. Not sure where the other teams finished but it was a good team effort by all.

5/29/12 WOD and POOR PERFORMANCE
After getting my butt kicked on Monday it was time to get back to the routine. Showed up at the BOOM BOX for some Back Squats, Wall Balls, and 1 Arm KB Push Press.

5/29/12 WOD

Skill Strength – Back Squats … So this is where POOR PERFORMANCE comes in and I blame poor eating for it 100%. I’m sure my mile runs were slower on Monday as well due to eating bad but I didn’t take that into consideration then because it was so darn hot. We did a 5, 3, 1 program this morning. My weights were 110lbs, 115lbs, 125lbs. The 110 felt fine, 115 started feeling heavy and 125 was hard. I only got the 1 rep for 125! My max is 145. I should have been able to do more than 1 rep on that last round but I didn’t. I felt weak. My body and brain were weak. I blame the food. I’ve been putting in good work and it all falls apart this morning.

The MetCon was 10 Wall Balls (14lb ball) and 20 1 Arm KettleBell Push Press (that’s 10 per arm). 1 POOD was the weight I was supposed to use and it felt like 2 POOD instead. I could barely get it up! So I went down to 12kg. It was lighter but I still struggled. My wrist pain that wasn’t really affecting my workouts finally kicked in when I cleaned the KB. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t good. I definitely struggled with my right arm more than I did with my left arm. Wall Balls are the same old thing. I despise them yet I still must fight through and get it done. I had to EMBRACE the SUCK because I knew my dragging ass was all due to eating like CRAPOLA. My lesson may be learned. I’m not going to make you any promises given my track record. But I can tell you that for me it’s not worth it to get all crazy like trying to MAKE junk food make me happy. It’s not going to make me happy and it’s never going to make me feel good. As my coach asked me at the end of the WOD… “would you rather have the better time on the whiteboard or the piece of pizza?” Well this sick person, heheh healthy person I have become would rather have a better time on the board than more pizza. TRUE STORY!

Back to becoming addicted to being AWESOME because the past few days were far from AWESOMENESS. Have a Happy Tuesday. I’m struggling to get back on track. But it shouldn’t take me to long! Back at it already 🙂

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6 thoughts on “Murph, Self Sabotage and Poor Performance

    • Ya I know we do but it still feels bad and I definitely took a few step backwards! Ah well. I know it’s not the end of the world. Back to being disciplined. It’s actually a good thing that all of that junk didn’t leave me wanting more.

  1. Good for you for climbing back on the wagon sista, it’s ok to roll off now and then. You are awesome! Sure miss the box the last few days…see you Thursday!

  2. Debby Carroll says:

    Never look back. Guilt is always facing the rear, you know. (I totally avoid facing my rear!) Look ahead with joy. What happened yesterday is totally over. What makes you matter is what you do tomorrow. Good luck.

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