$@!$##%&*^$@#@! I can’t stop eating. Let me rephrase, I CAN’T STOP EATING CRAP! I’m in a downward spiral of bad eating. I definitely don’t need a scale to tell me how much I’ve gained. My bloated self in my ever shrinking clothes tell me daily and yet daily I stuff my face with badness. Just a little less than 2 years ago I kicked that shit in the face and now here I am eating for what? Not my health. Just eating! Is that what happens? A relapse. Back to my old self. I can’t let it go on anymore that’s for damn sure! And OH how quick the weight comes back. It sure doesn’t want to shed off that fast. It takes weeks…months even to meet the tiniest weight loss goals. But start stuffing your face and all the pounds jump right back on and get comfortable. I can’t continue to regress and be the old me. I gotta nip this in the bud and move on. Come on folks. I need some motivation. I’ve lost it!
At least I’m still showing up to put work in at the box but I know it’s not enough. Last week was a struggle and a mental beatdown. This week is a little discombobulated due to Christmas! Which by the way was good. How was y’alls? I hope you got to hang with your loved ones and enjoy life. I ate a lot, but you KNOW this already! Back to putting in work though right? Well we had a nifty little Christmas Eve WOD – 12 Days of BOOM! And we could choose to partner up or go solo. Hehe, I’m not about to do anything of the sort on my own so I partnered up. I failed to take a picture but here was the workout:
1 HSPU
2 Pull-ups
3 Over The Box jumps 24/20”
4 OHS 95/65
5 Burpees
6 Push Press 95/65#
7 Jumping Airsquats
8 Knees to Elbows
9 Wall-Balls
10 KBS 1.5/1
11 HRPU
12 Front Squats 95/65#
Kind of like the song , 12 days of Christmas, we did 1 HSPU, then 1 HSPU and 2 Pull Ups then 1 HSPU, 2 Pull Ups, 3 Over the Box Jumps, then 1, 2, 3 and 4 OHS. Rinse and repeat and add up to 12. My partner probably did more of the work but I really tried to do my part. All the gross foods draggin me down! We came in 3rd I believe at 22:01. Not too bad. The only upside to bad eating is that I feel I have to push harder to prove bad eating doesn’t slow me down. We all know it does but I can pretend right?!?
After Christmas Eve, we had a 2 day hiatus from the BOOM BOX. Arrived this morning to a chill BOX temperature of 37°. Really warm and welcoming! Every joint, muscle, and tendon was froze in my body. It doesn’t take long to warm up but 20° weather isn’t fun at all. Where’s my summer heat? I need you!
Skill/Strength: Pull Up work, Muscle Up Work
The bar was cold and working on kipping sucked. I tried using a pair of the kids football gloves to help keep my hands from freezing. They just made my skin hurt. It was a lose/lose situation. I typically think I do OKAY with the kipping but today I just didn’t have much in me. The extra LBS and the coldness was in my head. I was just glad for it to be over. Although it wasn’t going to get much better for the rest of the hour.
12/27/12 WOD
MetCon: 5 minutes AMRAP of 200m run, 15 Toes To Bar, rest 2 minutes 5 minutes AMRAP of 200m run, 15 HR Push Ups
Come on Coach you know it’s cold outside! My face was burning from the cold! It doesn’t make me run faster because it’s cold outside. I really did try to get in and out but holy geesh when my insides are freezing from all the cold air, I just couldn’t go fast. My TTB ended up being Knees to Elbows, kind of, sort of. I made it through 1 round and 1 run. It was ugly. The second round was a LITTLE BETTER as I can do PUSH UPS with a little more ease than anything hanging from the bar. I only said I did a little better. It was so hard to breathe after the first run. My nose is running and impairing my breathing. I made it through two full rounds, went out for a 3rd run but didn’t make it back in time so it doesn’t count. Sad Sad Sad.
That’s it for today y’all. It’s cold, I’m a mess and I need food help! I apologize for the depressing post. Last week was looking up by Friday and now it’s all blah all over again. There’s a big ol defrosted free range chicken waiting at home to be cooked. The good food is there, I’ve just been choosing to ignore it. Gotta put my blinders back and get to work! I’m scared to jump on the SUGAR DETOX but I have to do it. I will DO IT. And I will be AWESOME at it! Have an amazing day and let your awesome shine!
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You got this Steph! Set backs are just part of the journey…I can feel my body screaming for some goodness. We can do it!!! I am with ya sister!!!
Man oh man, it’s bad though! WE got this though, 2013 will be full of all sorts of PRs!
You can do it, girlie!! I hear a bunch of crossfit folks are jumping on the Whole30 wagon January 2.. just sayin’. 😉 hehe.. holidays are evil, aren’t they? I’ve let the diet slip as well. I mean when Granny is offering you super buttery fried pierogis, you can’t say no! Family traditions are meant to be followed..
Anyway.. hope you had an awesome Christmas and you’ll get right back on track in January!! 🙂
I know I can! I just need to focus. All the sugar/wheat/processed food fog is messing with my brain and it seems like such a large task. I know it’s not, clearly I’ve been a clean eater for a while. But it really messes with you. I think I’ll have to do the Whole 30 for sure! Weekend planning here I come. I just need to get back in my routine 😀
I hear ya.. getting out of the routine makes it such a struggle sometime! I haven’t cooked in days! 🙂
I haven’t cooked in days either, unless you count making hundreds of cake balls! Then I’ve cooked a lot! Just downloaded all the Whole 30 pdfs. Ready to plan. Almost considering ordering from Pre-Made Paleo an emergency meal plan for lazy weekends. Only considering at the moment though. It seems so easy!
Have you done a Whole30 before?
I saw that pre-made plan thing.. a bit pricey though! It definitely takes a lot of meal planning though.
I have never “officially” done the Whole30, I pretty much went along their guides. I’m gonna follow it to the tee this time around. The premade are pricey but when you aren’t prepared or have all the ingredients, or lazy one saturday afternoon, it’s perfect. If I were to go to Chipotle I’d spend $10-$13 anyways. So as far as time saved and getting a more balanced meal, I think it’s not a bad idea. Not biting the bullet this time though. I’ll make my foods
I wish I could splurge though!
Oh stop. In my world, that’s called a carb reload and you are carrying extra water that comes along with the glucose. Muscles just soak that stuff up. Food is fuel – not emotions. Sure, you have to stop, but the little period of dirty eating may actually be good for your metabolism. Especially with how you workout. The body adapts to burn less calories if it has a stable low level of fuel. All you did was trick your biology into thinking its NOT in a famine. The truth is that on average, we only gain a pound over the holidays. Problem is that most doing deal with that pound. Or they just keep gaining a pound of fat a month for a couple years. Sorry for the length. I could blog on this.
I know 😦 I’m a big baby! My dirty eating has been exceptional though and I really do need to clean it up. I’m not scared of the amount so long as it’s “clean”. Lately it’s been a lot of sugars and processed foods. But hopefully the trickery works on my biology like you say!!! I’m sucking it all up now, putting my big girl panties on and pushing forward for 2013.
Yeah, me too. I literally have pulled out my big girl panties lately. I got CANDY for Christmas. From the husband. ??? I ate it. AND I had my measurements and body fat checked on Dec 26th. I’m proud of that. I’m badass. I took the news with a bit “so what?” attitude. All that sugar has made for a couple of great workouts. Not one, but two PR’s yesterday.
Awesome on the PRs! I have a long ways to go before I have your “so what?” attitude. But I also have a long ways to go fitness wise too. I’ve been close but it’s always 2 steps forward, 3 steps back with me. My goal this year is to just do and be and not nitpick all the in between.
I think that’s a smart goal. I get too caught up in details usually. I started making big gains in the last month when I stopped logging food and weighing myself. Not recommended for newbie’s, but after 3 years of logging, I thought I could get away with it. Now I started again because Coach thought that I might not be eating enough. Well, at least up until Dec 24th. Hahahaha!
Ya I used to keep track of everything, lost some good weight then I took some time off and never went back to logging everything I put in my mouth. But not too long after all my journaling I started eating Paleo. I was doing really well losing weight, building muscle, until honey and fruit took over my world. I did a sugar detox and was back on track for a little bit. Clean eating until November and then I snowballed right into December for bad eating 24/7. I know how to be disciplined and have control. I have just misplaced it for the moment.
See food diet…yup that’s me in a nut shell, and out of a nut shell that matter.
Hehe, yup! I might even eat the shell if it were coated in chocolate! Eh I like my teeth so maybe not 😀
You’re not alone! I’m not looking forward to detoxing from all this junk, but it must be done!
Identifying the problem is half the solution. It is so difficult to eat right. Getting to the box takes ONE decision, but eating healthy takes all damn day long. It is much more difficult to do. But, it can become a habit and if you don’t buy the junk and have it around, it is much harder to eat junk.
Good luck.
We did a 12 days of Christmas, too, but I couldn’t manage all 12 days.