Yikes, I know. Where have I been? Being a BUM, dammit. And the little guy above perfectly portrays how I look and feel right now! Am I happy about it? NO. Am I doing anything about it? No. I haven’t even walked into the BOOM Box for over a week! That’s like never happened unless I’ve been sick or out of town.
Here I sit with a bum wrist. And no, I haven’t seeked professional medical advice, but I did realize I was living in some land of denial. I kept thinking it will get better, it just needs some rolling out and some ice and I’ll be good. Well it needed some stabilization. And finally when it hurt to put my hair in a pony tail, I snapped out of my delusional world and I went and bought a brace for it. And now, I’m officially taking care of it. Just stabilizing it for a couple of days has helped dramatically. I know, I know, most of you are screaming, go see a dr. but my insurance sucks, like bad. Like I have a $5K deductible and have to pay full, sometimes contracted rates, but pretty much full price until I reach $5K. So paying for XRays and/or other spendy services at full price isn’t fitting into my life right now. If after a couple of weeks, I’m still hurting, I promise I will see a dr.
And instead of working at my eating habits or taking up some form of jogging/walking. I sit here in my sad, poor, poor, petrie hole. I have fallen into the water, but I’m not flying out. I am being a bum. I will lose the weight loss work challenge too 
And as I sit here typing this, I’m seeing how disappointed in myself I am. So maybe I’ll motivate myself right out of this funk. But odds are I won’t. Not today at least. It also doesn’t help that it’s cold and dreary in my part of the world.
I also had to tell my Wodapalooza team that I don’t think I’ll be recovered enough in a month and even if I am, the losses I have from being limited will surely put us at a disadvantage. So there’s another reason to stuff my face with oreos. Nevermind the article floating around telling tales of oreos being worse than crack or something.
Blah Blah Blah, right? It’s a phase, I hope. And maybe as I peruse the interwebs, I’ll find some motivation at working through my funk.
I just wanted to check in with y’all and say HI. Ask for some prayers. And if prayers aren’t your thing, then maybe some happy thoughts. And I wanted to remind you all how awesome you are and to keep on doing the right thing. And if you’re in a funk with me, know that it’s short term. We’ll find the inspiration and motivation to get our mojo back!
Have a happy Tuesday! Be awesome!
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I can totally relate to this. I was in a real funk when I couldn’t do anything during my quad injury. But you will get back at it soon enough, and maybe the rest is what you need. I did the same thing, I put on weight when I was sitting around feeling sorry for myself. It’s ok. you will get through it and you will get back at it when you are ready. Keep your chin up. You are still awesome. 🙂
It is hard to keep that chin up but I will try! Thanks for the encouraging words. I wish I wasn’t such a headcase but I just can’t help it 😀 And oreos are really tasty!
And I completely agree with rest is probably what I really need. Everything just needs a break. I just dread getting back to it and struggling with loss in strength.
Aw kitten I’m sorry you’re so down. Injuries suck, and much like you when injured I can’t bring myself to do anything else to “better” myself, sometimes I just have to mope.
That said, I really hope your wrist continues to improve. I also highly recommend you check out my blog post from yesterday wherein my FUPA tried to escape into the world at work. If that doesn’t work for you, there’s one about t2b orgasms in there too.
And frankly, it doesn’t have to be my blog, but make yourself laugh. They say laughter is the best medicine, and sometimes it’s really true. Do something to make yourself smile today, you deserve it.
You are a nutcase and completely hilarious! LOVE IT! I had to catch up on your blog and glad you TOLD me to go read it! See what depression does to me? I haven’t read anyone’s blogs but I promise I can’t get behind on yours anymore. I can honestly and proudly say that t2b has no effect on me. Wow! My FUPA has tested my limits but yours takes the cake.
I’m a firm believer in laughter is the best medicine. But clearly only when I’m not the one down in the dumps!
Also you need to get in on some giveaway deal with VS and choose me to win a pair of those pants. I’m a shorty but they look so comfy. Not ready to pay that much for them though, not yet at least.
Thanks for the laughs. I had some encouraging folks on my facebook as well and I may just show up to the box to just be in the environment and stop listening to my inner fat kid. Gosh I wish she would just go away.
Girrrrrl, you need to get up, knock those crumbs (mmmm, Oreos) off, and get moving!
I know it totally sucks to be injured, but I agree that getting to the gym is the best thing for you. Get Coach to give you some stuff you CAN do! You can do sprints. You can do ab mat. You can do mobility.
Go take a walk. Outside! Be good to yourself, and it won’t feel as horrible when your wrist is better.
Hang in there. Even with your sleeve of delicious crack.
I know, I know! I got a lot of motivating comments from everyone. So I set my alarm for this morning to just go and do anything active and then I slept right through the alarm. I’m awesome like that. I DID put down the crack last night, cooked up some good clean foods and stopped throwing myself a pity party!
GREAT! The first step is the hardest.
If the weather is nice, go for a walk today! Then hit the gym tomorrow.
LOOK….in 2010 I had a broken femur. I was *grateful* my Coach let me still come to the gym. On crutches. And you know what: I worked out. No feeling sorry for myself for 5 months. I was so thankful they let me in there (obviously a hazard!). She felt bad for only giving me upper body stuff: push press, pullups, stuff with bands, etc. Things that wouldn’t put pressure on my leg.
It made ALL the difference in my mental health. I felt part of the group and community, just by being there.
So. GO.
It’ll all work out, Steph!! You’re a strong chickie and so determined that don’t let the stupid wrist get you down! Front squat! 😉
And maybe go see a sports therapist? Could be some simple mobility work that will get it back to tip top shape!
Oh Jenn, I did let it get me down, but I’m trying to clear that muck in my brain! Seriously the brace is helping. I’m giving this brace through til Monday to see how it still feels. If I’m struggling I will go to a Dr.
I can relate from both ends of the fence on this one, being the injured athlete, AND being the practitioner. I truly think, that since you’ve rested it and it’s not getting better you might consider just biting the bullet and let a provider evaluate that wrist. What if you truly did something bad (fracture, ligament tear, etc.) At this point you could be causing permanent damage.. whew.
I also understand how stubborn we CrossFitters are. I’m in the same boat with a nagging knee – not nearly as severe as your situation. Wow. Best of luck! Hang in there.
Ya I’m stubborn that’s for sure. That fear of something really bad does nag me at some point every day. And I sure as heckola don’t need permanent damage. Even though I could be wrong, I feel like the brace is helping and if anything preventing me from doing any more harm. I’m giving it til Monday to see where I’m at pain and mobility wise. I need to start a “send steph to the dr. fund”. 😀